Warrior Weekly: The bloom – it’s happening
Intense healing. Creations realised. Feeling it all.
Most Sundays I share with you my week at a peak. The highs, the lows, the insights. Thought-provoking prompts at the end.
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Easter Monday – first couples overnight retreat was a huge success. 2 bodywork channelled treatments this morning complete with some channelled messages. One of the most deeply meaningful and life-impacting messages I’ve ever received is “creation not control” with some insights that carry so much meaning to both me and the client. Both left changed and transformed as appears to be the outcome of this particular retreat experience. Super intrigued to know, what does “creation not control” conjure up in you?
The tingling feeling to the right-hand side of my head continued on and off all day. Physical healing happening, something that has been new to me in the last 18 months (or at least new to me on a conscious/awareness level). All alongside pain reducing from unprecedented and unimageable levels down to what is now barely-there. What once disrupted my life to the point of disability is now merely an unpleasant experience with occasional peaks.
What does physical healing look and feel like to you? How do you connect with this happening in your body?
Tuesday – facial and bodywork on the Mr. Brunch with life-long friend and woodlands walk later. Received more (energetic) healing as we sat on the bench at the top of ‘tap hill’. It was here that the book idea to publish a selection of blogs and posts was born. The work is already done. To remain unedited. Its purpose is to celebrate where I am, in the here and now – on my journey, of healing, of writing, of making it - in sickness and in health.
Big or small, what are you celebrating this week? For the first few years I found the wins were only there when I looked for them so I encourage you to do the same if it doesn’t necessarily feel like there is anything to shout about right now.
Wednesday – mammoth yoga sesh online commencing with lymphatic drainage, somatic movement throughout shoulders, hips, groin even our organs received attention. By the end I was energetically buzzing all over.
Shared my latest client case study, Warrior Unleashed: a shedding of self. I can’t tell you how vulnerable I felt posting this and how much fear bubbled up. I had to move away from it (to do something fun), remind myself I’d already proofread it in a non-fear state and it was good enough then so its good enough now. Not an easy way of being to master but one I appear to have made great headway with.
When showing up in a new way, how do you feel emotionally and how do you soothe and support how you feel?
Went to see the new Ghostbusters, have you seen it? You know what to expect but you can’t beat an old classic – and all the original crew (bar one who died in the 40 years since it was first aired). I was 4 when the original came out. Many memories watching it anytime it aired on tv as a kid.
Thursday – circle facilitation study has been an uncomfortable practice to work with. I’m on pillar 3 and we were meant to complete that weeks ago. 2months in and I haven’t ever been able to ‘catch up’. I have never been ‘behind’ in my life. Though I now see that was because I was always in the energy of pushing/striving/forcing. Never once checking in with myself and how I felt or what my other priorities might be. For the benefit of my health, I can no longer live/work that way. The discomfort comes because I now work at my own pace, in flow, on a timescale that suits me and not what someone else says. Even though we are encouraged by the teacher to do just that (dealing with discomfort is part of the work), it still feels on some level that I am doing something wrong. That I’m not good enough. All because I’m not up to speed or on top of my work, sat at the front of the class getting an A*.
Do you feel like you’re forever playing catch up? Where do you feel behind? Often times its all about what we think we should be doing or need to do (for someone or something outside of ourselves). But what is the one thing that your body needs?
Ecstatic after receiving an email and a message via Linked In to express interest in The Warrior’s Path journey….so glad I didn’t let my fear get the better of me yesterday!
Friday – final session of The Warrior’s Path with my 4th client to embark on this journey. The last session comes with a big breakthrough - this was the first time that breakthrough happened online (normally its in the weeks/months after). It was an incredible end to her 2-month journey and in other ways only the very beginning.
My first “Explore More” trial run followed. A download came to me in the night to offer an online offering with a one card reading for £15. I didn’t know what this would look like or what purpose it would serve until now. It works great for those that want to explore more and have a bit of a chat through things, away from the comments section.
2pm soulful circle took me on a hell of a journey. It was a practice run (much like one I did last week) where we dared to be bold with an idea new to us, yet with no idea how it would land or turn out. I met with my soul and all the souls of my ancestors and practiced leaning into their support. Whenever I connect with them, I always feel their celebratory energy and like they’re really cheerleading me on. Have you explored any ancestral work? Is it something that appeals to you? How do you feel about it?
Saturday – our plans to climb Helvellyn were cancelled due to the high winds. Likely just as well as I feel pretty done in, a little flat. It helped to read Kirsty Gallagher’s latest energy update on the eclipse, rare new moon, this planet doing this thing and the sun doing that. I don’t understand all the nitty gritty detail but I sure feel it. Honouring how I feel is the way forwards, it seems to have the biggest pay offs from a health win perspective.
As I sat down to journal, ideas for a new book outline came through. This book is thee book. The one I’ve already written that turned out to be “the book before the book”. It seems that now I’ve got my celebratory book all down on paper, it has made way for this to come through. It’s very different to how I thought it was going to turn out. Maybe that has been the point of this writing journey so far?
Sunday – more healing! This time, my solar plexus chakra. Front middle, left hand side and once I got up (at the crack of dawn) the right hand side. The only way forward for my healing now is to be living month to month symptom free. A way of living I haven’t ever experienced in all my adult life.
Raining on and off today (and a lot this week), these April showers are pretty heavy and the wind levels feel like my caravan is going to take off! I’ve been walking twice a day more frequently since I moved back but I can’t seem to muster up the energy today. I had plenty of energy to get to the Canal Tavern for Sunday lunch though. Mushy peas with all the usual trimmings, a rare and odd concoction but I have to say I am a fan.
Space for reflection
My greatest passion is to help others who live with chronic illness find their voice. Part of the work I do around this is to ask thought-provoking questions. Choose one or two below and let’s chat about what’s come up for you in the comments?
Super intrigued to know, what does “creation not control” conjure up in you?
What does physical healing look and feel like to you? How do you connect with this happening in your body?
Big or small, what are you celebrating this week? For the first few years I found the wins were only there when I looked for them so I encourage you to do the same if it doesn’t necessarily feel like there is anything to shout about right now.
When showing up in a new way, how do you feel emotionally and how do you soothe and support how you feel?
Do you feel like you’re forever playing catch up? Where do you feel behind? Often times its all about what we think we should be doing or need to do (for someone or something outside of ourselves). But what is the one thing that your body needs?
Have you explored any ancestral work? Is it something that appeals to you? How do you feel about it?
Behind the paywall: I’ll bring these prompts to our Healing Through Writing space in the morning for those occasions where we need inspired ideas on what to write about. Join us? Here’s what to expect when you do.
I love your post Amber ~ catch up...? No my sister, you are exactly where you are meant to be and your soul is showing you. 🙏
I do indeed feel like I’m always playing catch up. Even something as simple/low stakes as, “damn, I’m getting behind on my magazines.” I do not at all love the feeling, but even with simplifying my life to facilitate illness recovery, I am somehow still “behind” on things.