I do indeed feel like I’m always playing catch up. Even something as simple/low stakes as, “damn, I’m getting behind on my magazines.” I do not at all love the feeling, but even with simplifying my life to facilitate illness recovery, I am somehow still “behind” on things.
The journey to simplifying life keeps showing me new ways to slow down. Often painfully so. It’s only in the last couple of weeks I’m really starting to see I’m not behind at all, I’m on another timeline that is different to everyone else’s but one that is meant for me. Not easy to wrap my head round (far from), but one I am trying to integrate nevertheless.
What does “creation not control” conjure up in you? - I will be pondering this but the only word that came up for me was perfectionism. Perhaps that perfectionism is the enemy of creation and a sign of wanting to control? 👩🎨
What does physical healing look and feel like to you? How do you connect with this happening in your body? - Physical healing I notice more as a reduction of symptoms/pain and an increase in a ability. I also feel less fatigue, I’m at my healthiest when I wake up feeling refreshed without an alarm and don’t need more than 8 hours sleep ❤️🩹
Big or small, what are you celebrating this week? - I am celebrating my new level of movement as my knee heals. I will be celebrating the further I’ll be able to walk as each day I push myself a little more 🚶🏻♀️ 🩼
When showing up in a new way, how do you feel emotionally and how do you soothe and support how you feel? - Showing up in a new way can provoke anxiety in me, changes or transition can be difficult for me. I could support or soothe myself by voicing my corners in safe spaces and remind my self I’ve got this 💪🏽
Do you feel like you’re forever playing catch up? - I constantly feel like I’m chasing my tail. I have never ending lists of things to do and I’m terrible at actually focusing enough to finish tasks. Whilst completing one task add or start another 10 tasks. I find decision making hard and have many decisions in open tabs, including some that could be there months or years! 📋
Where do you feel behind? - Having a family. I feel my life has come to a standstill and everyone is passing me by. Slowly coming to terms with it and finding ways to move forward differently but it’s where I feel left behind. 🌥️
But what is the one thing that your body needs? - My body needs time and patience right now. It needs a lot of TLC and care as it repairs my knee. It’s doing a great job and I need to remind myself that it’s healing well albeit not on the timescale I’d like but in the time it needs. ⏰
Have you explored any ancestral work? Is it something that appeals to you? How do you feel about it? - yes and yes! There are so many answers looking back. Things I carry that aren’t mine or that are making my problems bigger. I find it so interesting and think there is so much to be said for unpacking trauma that is passed on generations. Stopping it and letting go of what doesn’t serve us! 👨👩👦👦👩👩👧👧
Love all these shares! Thanks so much for making time for yourself and then sharing it al here too. Very interesting about the perfectionism/control thing! Great insights about physical healing and what being your healthiest looks like. No alarm - that’s a biggie for me too.
The to do list died its death for me along with my career and income. I had no idea up until then how much it was weighing me down and ruling my life.
I love that the human experience has its own timeline and it’s not the productive, linear one we’ve been led to believe (the love is sarcastic. It’s been a tricky adjustment to make in my life - my own injury helped with that😆).
These insights and reflections on ancestral work, healing and connection are incredible! I’d love to see that in a post x
I love your post Amber ~ catch up...? No my sister, you are exactly where you are meant to be and your soul is showing you. 🙏
This sure is what I’m learning -connecting more and more with this in recent weeks. Definitely a shift happening 🖤
I do indeed feel like I’m always playing catch up. Even something as simple/low stakes as, “damn, I’m getting behind on my magazines.” I do not at all love the feeling, but even with simplifying my life to facilitate illness recovery, I am somehow still “behind” on things.
The journey to simplifying life keeps showing me new ways to slow down. Often painfully so. It’s only in the last couple of weeks I’m really starting to see I’m not behind at all, I’m on another timeline that is different to everyone else’s but one that is meant for me. Not easy to wrap my head round (far from), but one I am trying to integrate nevertheless.
That’s an excellent reframe, Amber.
What does “creation not control” conjure up in you? - I will be pondering this but the only word that came up for me was perfectionism. Perhaps that perfectionism is the enemy of creation and a sign of wanting to control? 👩🎨
What does physical healing look and feel like to you? How do you connect with this happening in your body? - Physical healing I notice more as a reduction of symptoms/pain and an increase in a ability. I also feel less fatigue, I’m at my healthiest when I wake up feeling refreshed without an alarm and don’t need more than 8 hours sleep ❤️🩹
Big or small, what are you celebrating this week? - I am celebrating my new level of movement as my knee heals. I will be celebrating the further I’ll be able to walk as each day I push myself a little more 🚶🏻♀️ 🩼
When showing up in a new way, how do you feel emotionally and how do you soothe and support how you feel? - Showing up in a new way can provoke anxiety in me, changes or transition can be difficult for me. I could support or soothe myself by voicing my corners in safe spaces and remind my self I’ve got this 💪🏽
Do you feel like you’re forever playing catch up? - I constantly feel like I’m chasing my tail. I have never ending lists of things to do and I’m terrible at actually focusing enough to finish tasks. Whilst completing one task add or start another 10 tasks. I find decision making hard and have many decisions in open tabs, including some that could be there months or years! 📋
Where do you feel behind? - Having a family. I feel my life has come to a standstill and everyone is passing me by. Slowly coming to terms with it and finding ways to move forward differently but it’s where I feel left behind. 🌥️
But what is the one thing that your body needs? - My body needs time and patience right now. It needs a lot of TLC and care as it repairs my knee. It’s doing a great job and I need to remind myself that it’s healing well albeit not on the timescale I’d like but in the time it needs. ⏰
Have you explored any ancestral work? Is it something that appeals to you? How do you feel about it? - yes and yes! There are so many answers looking back. Things I carry that aren’t mine or that are making my problems bigger. I find it so interesting and think there is so much to be said for unpacking trauma that is passed on generations. Stopping it and letting go of what doesn’t serve us! 👨👩👦👦👩👩👧👧
Love all these shares! Thanks so much for making time for yourself and then sharing it al here too. Very interesting about the perfectionism/control thing! Great insights about physical healing and what being your healthiest looks like. No alarm - that’s a biggie for me too.
The to do list died its death for me along with my career and income. I had no idea up until then how much it was weighing me down and ruling my life.
I love that the human experience has its own timeline and it’s not the productive, linear one we’ve been led to believe (the love is sarcastic. It’s been a tricky adjustment to make in my life - my own injury helped with that😆).
These insights and reflections on ancestral work, healing and connection are incredible! I’d love to see that in a post x
I had forgotten about the ancestors. Thank you for the reminder. I will be working on this this week.
Amazing - I’d love to hear in what ways you choose to connect with them and how you get on.