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Congratulations on finding a form that resonates with you - I love that she's holding the sword in one hand and balance in the other - and it looks like balance is "wining" - yay you! xx

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Balance was def key as I set out on this journey back in 2018/19. I read the book recommenced to me “Balance Your Hormones Balance Your Life” by Dr Claudia Welch. It took me 3 years to even start experiencing an inkling so a long term approach. But oh so worth it!

I am loving your analogy with the farmlands by the way - please feel free to drop a link to that article in here so that other readers may come across it. You shared so much inspiration with that one, as you so often do🦋

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Aw you were right, I loved this article and I love the new image. I like the colours, it's soft and calm but radiates strength at the same time. A feminine kind of energy. Not always an obvious physical strength, but an inner strength.

I also love that you asked for what you needed at the party. It seems so simple doesn't it?, but I know it takes a lot to get to that point of firstly even knowing what you need and then asking for it. I hope to do more of this going forward too ☺️ x

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It’s been a long term practice for me. It took me until the age of 38 to wake up to its necessity. There have been plenty of no’s. And I’ve had to start using that word too! But much deeper healing as a result💜🔮

Thanks so much for your feedback and reflections 🙏💙 also, the idea to use AI to generate a logo came from you! So I was super grateful for that!!

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Asking for a place to rest at a social event takes courage. I haven't been to one for several years and it has never occurred to me that I could ask for this. Why? I think I would feel embarrassed and like I had to explain myself. Were the space given I don't think I could actually relax enough to make use of it. 😊 Definitely something for me to work on here. 💜

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Thank you for witnessing the courage 🥰

It’s not something I have ever done before - it was an all out non-attendance for 2.5 years. Then came along many no’s and the odd yes. Now here I am still declining but I’ve made more yes’s this year.

It’s a tricky balance to ascertain. And one where emotional regulation has been a massive part of the practice (at one point, I sat regulating my emotions everyday for a year.

I’m not sure how I would have felt before now but I do know that embarrassment is one of the emotions I’ve struggled with the most.

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Embarrassment and perhaps a sense of shame that, although I am doing all the things, I am still a long way from being able to lead a 'normal' life. And that leads to frustration and impatience with myself again. 😜

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I found your explanation of the image really powerful, Amber. It changed the way I view it for sure. I’m still admittedly trying to get past my association that AI = fake/inauthentic. I think that will take some time.

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It’s been a big one for me too Amy so I hear you. In my own case, I’m also not a natural technology/IT person. I fear it.

In the end, I randomly attended a writers session on AI who offered the option to embrace the technology.

I’m giving it my best shot but it has its imperfections - tells me chronic migraine is affecting 2 million when the real number is up to 148 million.

It’ll also lead to great change of which there will be a dark side as well as light. I’m always reminded of the quote “it’s not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent. It’s the ones most adaptable to change”. Forever trying to roll with it🌀

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That very quote by Charles Darwin is hanging in one of my rooms alongside his picture 😊

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Love that! 💙I’m always brought back to that quote - a biggy in 2020 and also back in my career in the before days

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You are an inspiration Amber.... I have never been brave enough to take a nap in the middle of a party, but I dream of that day 😃 A warrior woman indeed!

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Ha ha ha - when you reflect it back to me like that😆😂

I’m not sure what the amber of old would think of me now🤣 I used to be the first one there and the last man standing!

We left this party at 9:30pm😂

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Well I'm definitely the person who'll be leaving by 9:30 and be the soft drinks... but napping in the middle, that's Jedi-level self-care 😀

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Beautiful Amber! I love how we can play with a creative muse in ai! 🤖

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Finding it far more beneficial to embrace AI than to fear or resist it💜✨lots of instant fun to play with.

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I love the image of this warrior Amber and the power to reclaim your health and balance. What comes to mind is that this version of you is your higher self. It’s often difficult to comprehend what a healed version of us looks like, but I believe this is a representation of that. It becomes an energy, an attraction energy as well as a visual representation. For example how clearly I see my higher self has evolved as I’ve healed.

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Oooh thanks for these insights Louise. I know for a long time I could not imagine myself as well. Especially over my bleed. So this shows me how far I’ve come with what you say😍

I’ve received healing from the witch wound - twice - in my dreams last night 🧙🏼‍♀️🔮

where that will take me beyond dis-ease and the more frequent un-ease that I am yet to speak about which is more where I’m at these days.

I’ve been training myself for the ease and now I can see it, it’s coming 🙏🦋🌈🚀✨

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Oh the dreams I’ve been having! There is something about you can’t be it if you can’t see it. So if you have been in a state of ill health for so long there is no longer a point of reference for feeling well. You lose all connection to what that looks like, the connection bit is important, what that feels like. So you are stuck in the dis-ease. That’s where you come in. To show the healed version and then work towards that. Magical 💫💕

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😍🙏✨💚🦋🌈🧙🏼‍♀️🔮🚀✨

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I was thinking, old you probably would have reached for a red bull rather than a nap. I think this is an incredible demonstration of self awareness, self care and overriding that FOMO.

I also really like the image. I’ve not had such success using AI for images. I feel like the sword down by the side gives a sign the war is over but the looking forward to the path ahead (which seems mountainous) says that there’s still a journey ahead xx

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Wow, that is so true !!!!! There are still parties I attend or outdoor dance event occasions where I still do that. And I’m ok with that. Especially when I want to dance. I could have easily done that here but I didn’t 🙏🩵🦋

It’s tricky using AI. It took me a few attempts and this one still isn’t perfect. It’s taken me over 2.5 years to produce one though and you’ve had a logo/brand the entire time🤔

I can’t copy your text but the last section of how you interpret the warrior woman…this exactly reflects where you are on your own journey🧡

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If I’m at an event, especially a dancing one, I always use caffeine. I now have those organic cokes or carry a flask of tea with me 😆

Indoor events I don’t know I would ask. BUT I have learnt when it’s time to leave, I think having Liath helps that though as she’s a good excuse and demanding of her needs.

Haha it’s very true. I do feel like the fight is over and now the challenge has really started, the nitty gritty of it. I think I had to get to a point where I wasn’t fighting to start truly healing 💚

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