Warrior Weekly: Please universe, send me a sign

Deep healing, things not working out, deeper insight and doing my best to stay aligned. There's got to be a sign or a message in here for you too?

Monday – Joyful Growth on Substack sesh with

Claire Venus

. The 2^nd time I’ve felt like this space has given me confirmation that I know what I am doing and I am right to take my time with developing this community and space of my own. Slow as it may be (or feel), I am enjoying it and this matters most to me (it is sustainable).  I am much clearer now on the paywalled service I am bringing in. It will start with one weekly writing class on a Monday. I want to make this space accessible to all. Show up in your PJ’s, join us from your bed if you like (I’ve done this before and I will be in my pjs some days too). Journal, write bullet points, create posts/blogs, make a start on your book! Turn up and write only one word (this was how I started back in my bedbound days). Benefit from the group, the support, the network, the connection. For those of you who want to write but don’t know where to start, I’ll be sharing the thought-provoking questions at the end of each Warrior Weekly to give you prompts to work with and reflect on more deeply. These alone will change the relationship you have with yourself (as well as with others) and in turn your life – all of which will lead to improved health. I’m thinking 9/9:30am on a Monday morning, but let me know what you’re thinking.

Drove to the North East in the afternoon for a conscious connection breathwork ceremony. What a journey! Have you ever done one? It was with Morgan (Healing Here) who I ran the overnight retreat with the other year. The exact same group of us all came back together (just as we did for one epic night of healing last year too). Me and Morgan will be releasing dates for weekend retreats again sometime next year. The requests for which never stopped coming in, it’s just that despite the life-changing experience for each delegate, the aftermath of the retreat left us both with an enormous amount of healing to do. In me this presented itself as a full on 3-month health relapse and a series of imprisoning beliefs “I am not worth it” and “I’m not good enough”. It’s been painful for sure, but here I am now. How do you step into your own worthiness? What makes you feel enough?

What about if we step into our own power and crown ourselves as worthy and good enough? What would happen then?

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Tuesday – 9am writing class. Leisurely morning staying over at my friend’s house. Instead of coming to me for her monthly Retreat With Me we did it at her house. Went out for lunch, day dreamed of shopping for clothes in the retail section of the café (one day) and left to drive home after giving her a gorgeous facial. Feeling much lighter and more alive after last night’s session.

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Wednesday – online yoga sesh starting with feelings check-in and breathwork with person gazing meditation, all before ending with a more standard yoga pose sequence. A few insights came through and the general re-grounding and re-centring practice that I need in my week every week.

Bi-weekly bodywork client – big energy shift in this client’s body. That’s 2 he’s experienced in the last few months, meaning big shifts in improved health. The first shift saw his PSA test reduce from 33.3 to 2.9. He’d felt the shift himself this time round. Speaking of big shifts, I’ve seen a lot of meditations on creating your own shift on YouTube this week - there seems to be a theme or some kind of energetic alignment and opportunity for it right now. I’ve received so much healing from YouTube meditations and the best bit? We all have smart phones and they don’t cost a dime. Is deep healing through meditation something you’ve explored? Let me know if you’d like any recommendations and I’ll share a separate post on guided meditation.

R asked me to pick him up from his Leeds Christmas works night out. I wanted to make it work for me too so I found a bodywork therapist (mine is out of action for 3 months and boy am I feeling it). By the time I arrived (an hours drive away), she’d unfortunately had a deep cut at her last clients and I was left in Leeds with 4 hours to kill! Googled Vue cinema and made it in time to see the only showing of WISH.  I love the messages the younger generation are receiving. Given that for adults we only witness the p*ss being ripped out of anything connected to spirituality, intuition and magic. Can you imagine the future world we’re creating by raising children who are kind and connected to their own innate wisdom and true selves? As opposed to those of us who deep down came to believe that somewhere along the way we would always be rescued by somebody or other. Game changer.

This evening worked out better than it could have as I got to gate-crash R’s Christmas party, eat the most amazing Thai food and play darts in the pub after. His work colleagues were dying to meet me and I turned up in yoga pants and a bobble hat!

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Thursday – 9am writing class (general) and 1pm writing class (The Artists Way). Received the message “trust the process” and “listen”. A tricky challenge for me right now but doing my best to stay aligned. Proud of myself for establishing a boundary around my writing classes and starting this afternoon’s Retreat With Me experience in the afternoon. My warrior friend came for The Expansive Experience and stayed over. It’s taken for her to be sick of living life the way she is, understanding that change needs to happen and to know that it’s ok for her to experience this, that she is allowed to put in place help and support for herself, prioritise her needs alongside others to allow herself this space. This is a very long way for a mum of 4 to come. I can’t wait to write a Warrior Unleashed case study for this client friend – she is a single mother of a now 18/16/8 and 7 year old who has survived the toughest decade of her life. She started the deep inner work 5+ years ago (we’ve been side by side propping one another up in our toughest, darkest and bleakest of times). She’s been going at it with the least amount of pressure on herself possible and doing what she can when she can. Super excited to see what the year ahead has in store for her. The channelled messages finished with a manifestation of love, peace and harmony at the end.

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We couldn’t see the way forward, we couldn’t even see each other for such a long time. But our friendship, our connection and our undying support for one another did not collapse - even in the midst of the collapse of our lives.

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Friday – both went for a lakeside walk before breakfast and had a chat through some case study questions. Her friends had been asking “what if it doesn’t work?”. She’d told them about the cacoa ceremony with me the other week where she left feeling a different person and like something had shifted. “Worth a try” she replied. We wondered if her friends might like to come over for a cacao ceremony, book in a treatment and stay over. I’ve been asking the universe to send me signs that clients would come forward to Retreat With Me and that my income would start to go up again after going down (due to restructuring my business). This is it!!

3pm virtual coffee with an amazing lady I met off linked in. She wants me to speak at her Clarity and Action group in the new year and has also put me forward to speak at a Women in Power group. All just after I’d submitted a form to speak at Inspire and Connect networking group too!

Big treat tea at R’s with cheesy garlic bread, infrared sauna and cold plunge pool after. Probably getting about 90seconds in the freezing cold pool atm but meeting my body where its at is where its staying.

Saturday  - leisurely morning with round 2 in the sauna and plunge. 3 posts written for socials inspired by this week’s retreat. Her friends have provisionally booked in for an Overnight Retreat With Me next June – bloody brilliant!! I’ll get ready to launch this as a new retreat – bring your friends and come along as 4 guests, start with a cacoa ceremony, stay over, have breakfast and enjoy a one-hour bodywork session each before you leave feeling like a new person and as though something has shifted. Boom!

Lunchtime nature walk with R – found £20 !! And it looks like the predicament I’m in with my car has a resolution.  Thank you universe, I know you are listening.

Finished the day with a short practice of eye gazing and connecting with our feelings. We learnt this off Sex Education of all places! (3rd series in.) He felt loved, respected and safe. I felt loved, generosity and kindness. Could you see yourself giving it a go with a loved one, child or friend?

Sunday – Christmas music to start the day with a manuka honey/lemon/cinnamon concoction for our throats. Sorting this post out early as published author friend (and client) has her first book signing event today. I wrote more about her journey with publishing (and with bodywork/healing) here:

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Space for reflection

My greatest passion is to help others who live with chronic illness find their voice. Part of the work I do around this is to ask thought-provoking questions. Choose one or two below and let’s chat about what’s come up for you in the comments section?

1. I’m in the process of setting up a weekly writing class on a Monday - if you were to join, would morning, afternoon or evening be most preferable?

2. Have you ever been to a conscious connection breathwork ceremony? What was your experience?

3. How do you step into your own worthiness? What makes you feel enough?

4. What about if we step into our own power and crown ourselves as worthy and good enough? What would happen then?

5. Is deep healing through meditation something you’ve explored? Let me know if you’d like any recommendations and I’ll share a separate post on guided meditation.

6. Can you imagine the future world we’re creating by raising children who are kind and connected to their own innate wisdom and true selves? What would that look and feel like?

7. Eye gazing practice - Would you give it a go with a loved one, child or friend as a practice to connect with your feelings as well as to each other?