What sensations arise when you imagine not needing to appear ok?
Self doubt- do I seem okay enough?
Anxiety that people won't believe me if they see me struggling to seem okay
Determined- I don't want people to think I'm weak, so let's push through
Where have you mistaken coping for healing?
In the past at work. I would feel accomplished if I could go even an hour longer before asking to be sent home and saw that as progress. I didn't click that my attacks would then be much worse when I was trying too hard.
What does functioning cost you energetically, emotionally, spiritually?
Energetically - on a bad day, I will use all my energy up very quickly and then crash. In my head, it makes sense because "at least I'm asleep" and don't have to deal with pain of triggers.
Emotionally- it actually makes me feel really alone, especially as my mum passed away and she was my migraine buddy.
Spiritually - it makes me question what I've done to deserve the attack today. What karma could possibly be exacting its revenge this time?
You are so right that our bodies will tell us eventually enough is enough. We can fool ourselves... but only for so long!
What sensations arise when you imagine not needing to appear ok?
Self doubt- do I seem okay enough?
Anxiety that people won't believe me if they see me struggling to seem okay
Determined- I don't want people to think I'm weak, so let's push through
Where have you mistaken coping for healing?
In the past at work. I would feel accomplished if I could go even an hour longer before asking to be sent home and saw that as progress. I didn't click that my attacks would then be much worse when I was trying too hard.
What does functioning cost you energetically, emotionally, spiritually?
Energetically - on a bad day, I will use all my energy up very quickly and then crash. In my head, it makes sense because "at least I'm asleep" and don't have to deal with pain of triggers.
Emotionally- it actually makes me feel really alone, especially as my mum passed away and she was my migraine buddy.
Spiritually - it makes me question what I've done to deserve the attack today. What karma could possibly be exacting its revenge this time?
You are so right that our bodies will tell us eventually enough is enough. We can fool ourselves... but only for so long!
That’s some hella deep insight.
I did get a sense and a feeling you might be in the deeper end of all of this.
Similarly I’ve been exploring all aspects of our health too - the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.
I’ve got a great practice giving everything a seat at the table that could help with the self doubt and other feelings and questions.
Have a read and see if it’s something you’d like to give a try:
https://warriorwithin.substack.com/p/migraine-healing-begins-when-everything
I think we need to really work extra hard on that communication candle! 🤣😂🤣
This was so incredibly good Amber.
😂🤣 I was wondering what the communication element was linking to and that was it!!
I loved the building bridges energetic intention.
I don’t always know the meaning of them when they come through and sometimes find out later.
But this chapter and next weeks are the bridge builders into what comes next in Pathway One.
The journey doesn’t half deepen from here💙