Weekly Warrior: When you win some, you lose some then you win some more.
Bank holiday Monday – An amazing client treatment to kick start the new week, bodywork channelling. I don’t often talk about the channelling side of treatments in any detail yet. Providing I manage my energy especially well, I always leave a bodywork channelling session as high as a kite. It’s an aspect of the work I do that really lights me up. At the same time gifting the client with what’s going on in their body, what’s coming up for their attention and a series of loving and compassionate messages.
Afternoon spent with a sacred soul sister halfway between both our homes. Clear blue skies and sunshine, a picnic in the park, endless chatter and deep connection. As I was ten minutes a way from another friend, I finished the day with a walk and talk near hers. Holding space for a challenging situation she was dealing with led to her taking inspired action for the benefit of her health and healing the next day.
Tuesday – full morning pamper for a new client (pedicure, lash lift and brow shape/tints). How we talked and talked – all things migraine and all things life. I left feeling invigorated as I often do - she looked like she’d been on holiday for a week! Feeling the pinch of overdoing it yesterday – it takes so little. Came home from a regular bodywork client and tea at R’s with a mouth ulcer and a cold sore ☹
Wednesday – Remember me talking about my weekly check in with
last week? My essential and non-negotiable start to every Wednesday. He only went and wrote a blog inspired by an experience I had referencing my all-time fave Disney, Alice in Wonderland! His blog Moving with anxiety will have your mind buzzing with the disconnect between mind:body that we have become so accustomed to and the realisation of the wisdom our bodies hold, all of which is available to us any time we tune in and listen.Today, I was able to check in with a niggle in my hip that I’d been ignoring the few times I’d felt it recently. In doing so, discovering the emotion caught up in there was resentment. And an inability to experience/receive joy on a deeper level. Today was also the day I hit the deck with tiredness and remembered it will be a crossover day in my menstrual cycle taking me from summer to autumn week. It really does pay to pay attention. In making this connection, I was able to make some adjustments so that I could support how I was feeling.
Thursday – 1st June and it’s Migraine Awareness month. Bonkers that this should coincide with it being 5 years this month that I found myself completely disabled by the illness, no longer able to work and unable to function. This month’s theme is “Educate Yourself, Educate others”. Taking the vast insight and personal experience I have gained in this disease and sharing the knowledge with others is a big part of my work. Wrote, typed and shared what came up for me when I sat with my experience on Migraine at Work - leading to others reaching out, sharing their experience and even how listening to my podcast had inspired action! Just the motivation I need to get back on track with my podcast series!
Today left me with a feeling of confidence in who I am, the work I do and what I offer. People are listening to me and are able to reflect on my experience and lessons learned in a way that will benefit their own health and healing. This can only be a good thing, right?
Finished the day with seeing a regular client who I was really looking forward to catching up with. Literally feel like this with every client I see with any regularity.
Friday – day off! I say a day off, it’s a writing day. And the usual Monday to Friday dog walking Milo. The sun’s back out and I made it to a long overdue chop at the hairdressers! I’m due on my period next week and I left feeling irritated (for no particular reason), also the niggle in my right-hand side hip kicked off again which I now know is resentment, all adding to some more low-level anxiety.
To set the scene for what came next in my day: I’ve retrained my brain to such an extent now that I no longer experience pain to a severe/agonising level. As advanced as neuroscience is, it has not yet caught up with this as a possibility. An area of science that I find fascinating, yet at the same time recognise it still does have its limitations.
Overcoming limited beliefs has been a huge part of my brain retraining work and an enormous if not foundational reason for why I believe I am as well as I am today. For the first time ever today, I was able to automatically remind myself that “it’s ok to feel how I feel”. That “I am lovable no matter how I feel”. I also leaned into what a pleasure it was to observe how I felt both in my body and emotionally, without judgement or expectation. A practice in the making for some time so although a challenging, deeply uncomfortable if not pivotal part of my healing journey, one I came to see as possibly one of the biggest breakthroughs I have experienced to date. Where will this take me as I head towards winter week in my menstrual cycle and day 1 of my period? A place and space I’ve never been before, that much I can tell.
Saturday – breakfast on the balcony, one of my favourite ways to start the day! A BBQ with friends, introducing my boyf to them for the first time. Because of all that’s happened in the last few years, since last time we did this one of my friend’s had a baby, the other is pregnant and I’ve stopped drinking and moved back to Yorkshire (so not as far to travel)! I had no idea what I’d be like energy wise but the day was fun, relaxed and easy. The sun was spectacular, we all had a wonderful time and it couldn’t have been more enjoyable.
Sunday – I may take the knowledge and understanding of a truly complex neurological disorder for granted at times, however, I never take for granted waking up hangover free. A little lethargic due to a later night than usual, it was a chill day with a few odd jobs, a gorgeous walk by the canal and the bonus of selling my spray tanning equipment on Facebook marketplace! I’ve been doing a lot of work around releasing the last of any resistance I am struggling to let go of - surrounding not just my clutter but also my health and any other area in life that holding on does not serve me. Though I have let go of more than I ever possibly could imagine, I feel a connection between not fully and completely being able to let go coinciding with the last of the clutter in my home and the remnants of what’s left of the ill health I’ve been living with.
Feeling ready and excited for the new week ahead!
And no matter what’s going on in our lives, here’s a reminder we can all take with us:
I was just about to close the app and your post popped in. Lovely reading about your week, the highs, the lows and the rabbit holes 🕳️ 🐇 🫖✨🌀✨