Warrior weekly: The beginning of the rise

It’s all coming together, the signs are there only if you look for them.

Monday – early morning (new moon) insight “it’s ok to take a break from (book) writing”. Joyful growth workshop with

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– I could get used to starting my weeks off in this way. Chose to go with joyful as my word of the week. Certainly feels a lot more joyful than this time last week. Not something I’ve ever done before but it felt inspiring and a great way to set the intention for the week ahead. If you chose a feeling to work with over your new week each week, which one would you choose?

Blustery lakeside walk with a feeling of blowing away the cobwebs, a real sense of an energy cleanse as a result, as though it’s some kind of new moon ritual/act.  Do you connect with the new moon and the potency of it’s energy in any way?  

You’ll often see me swirling around like this out in the fields (sometimes at dusk). It’s my way of feeling into freedom.

Dropped a clanger re work load tomorrow. Monthly Retreat With Me client leaves me a voice note “can’t wait to visit tomorrow, I need this so much!”. Only her apt that was 100% in there (I know because we extended it to an overnight stay the other week) has disappeared – in it’s place, 2 bodywork clients!! After an immediate panic, I realised it would all sort itself out. I could honour one of the treatments and rearrange the other.

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Tuesday – chaotic start to the morning. Had to be home for 9am. Only I’ve run out of toilet rolls and what with today’s unexpected visitor, had to do a Lidl shop on the way home from R’s. All was going well enough until I heard a woman excessively shouting at a member of staff. I get triggered at shouting and hate arguing and fighting of any kind. Realised that this kind of chaotic morning can be normal for many of us. A lot of thank you’s for the slow mornings that have become my routine in the car on the way home.

Burst through the door at 9am on the dot. Could’ve easily sacked off 9am writing class. My 10:30am apt still hadn’t read my message about today’s blunder. I put no pressure on myself to write any part of my book (what with yesterday’s message “it’s ok to take a break from writing” it). Immediately felt a sense of much needed connection with the group this morning. The support and space we hold for one another could easily be underestimated, undervalued (well, let’s face it – in the society we live in, it is. But not with these ladies). Tackled 8 journal prompts centred around showing up, stepping up and giving back instead. These 8 journal prompts became 8 short blogs, all explored and written in 50 minutes. Normally spend a good hour writing a blog when I’m in the flow. I was beaming afterwards and so proud of myself, felt so grounded and ready for the day ahead. There is no way I would’ve felt this good after the morning I’d had if I didn’t sneak in this time for myself.

Walked round to client’s house to let her know of my mistake. She was entirely understanding, I’ll see her Sunday instead. Today’s Retreat With Me started with the realisation that the big emotions coming up were surfacing to act as a guide, were the way shower for where to direct energy and attention next. Finished with bodywork magic and Tropic enchanted facial. Everyone’s loving my pumpkin soup atm.

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Wednesday - Received a message at 10pm asking if I wanted to deliver a talk at Thursday’s networking event! Up and at ‘em early to write an outline for it.

10am yoga online, much needed. A few more insights came through including fearing “the repercussions of being a woman” stored in my hips. Do you keep a track or record insights that you receive?

Yorkshire Wildlife Park in the aft was a great day out! More blustery weather and 3 hours walking left me feeling shattered but fulfilled at the end of the day.

We saw abundance of rescue animals including polar bears, tigers, zebra, giraffes and a whole range of other animals I can’t remember the names of!

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Thursday – smashed out the talk “How Monthly Reviews in Your Life and Business Will Take You to the Next Level”. Beaming afterwards, as was everyone else. Chose to lean in to a little extra support and sit on a chair for this one. It was quite the level up for me to make this talk more interactive than usual – ask questions and hold space for a writing activity so the audience could get real time practice. Nearly every woman came up to me afterwards to say how amazing it was, how timely, how much they needed it, how they never did monthly reviews with their partners but would really like to check in on how they are really doing. I’ve been wanting to share an article with you for a while on this one. Do you check in with yourself, your partner and/or your kids?

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Friday – Retreat With Me: The Expansive Experience. Was pretty excited to hold space and deliver this one. Turned out to be bright and light. “Open up, open up, open up. Time to play with your magic. Tell your story, you will find a way” was the general theme to this one. Her ancestors came through in a deeply poetic way. Do you ever feel like our ancestors will be cheering us on for the deep work we are doing?

First cacoa ceremony tonight for 2 friends who came to retreat with me overnight. Did the training 2 years ago but didn’t leave it with any confidence to hold one (until now). Started with a heart opening meditation, connecting with feelings, insights, messages and a sharing circle. I created a meditation journey for letting go the other week but hadn’t tried it out on anyone ‘til tonight. It’s not easy to identify that which we need to let go of. And then the added challenge of letting go of all that we have been holding on to so tightly. A good 2-3 years ago I became aware of the need to let go of fear, worry and doubt. I’ve let go of so much fear this year. It’s transformed my health physically and mentally. What have you let go of this year?

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Saturday – breakfast with the girls. Lakeside walk. Pretty much made them (with love) do a group journalling session on our reflections of this year. All with the intention of them seeing how far they’ve come and what they’ve truly got to be proud of and can celebrate. Knew they’d feel better once they’d done it. I started this practice in arguably the worst year of my life, when I completely lost any scrap of physical health I had left in 2018. It amazed me, how despite it all, I had managed to make some magical memories. Been doing it (In some form or another) ever since.

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Sunday – saw Tuesday’s bodywork client today. This woman is incredible, I wonder if she’d mind me writing her up as a case study/testimonial. At the beginning of the year she was doing 200 steps on average a day. A few months into bodywork, she began the journey of meeting herself where she was at and taking it from there. What felt like a snail’s pace took her to 600 steps a day over summer. Then 1200. This month her peak is 2,272 !!!!!!!!!!! She’s driving places for the first time in a long time ON HER OWN ! Her mobility and agility is increasing. The pain has reduced in her legs. She can move her arms with ease – I mean she was practically swinging them around today! After her session this morning, she is almost able to stand up straight. No longer bent over in the way she has been for such a long time now. Finding it much easier to move around her home, becoming nimble on her feet. Bursting with pride at the healing that is happening here, the readjustments made to facilitate this. What a way to finish the week! I’ve overloaded it again this week, come out in a big cold sore. But when you look at where I once was when I overdid it (bedbound up to 24 days a month) I feel pretty amazing right now. Fulfilled. Full of promise. On a mission. Excited for what’s to come. It certainly has been a joyful week. Might give the feeling of the week a go next week. How about you? How are you feeling this week?

On Thursday many of us were feeling like we’d overdone it, to the point of overwhelm. Feeling high levels of stress, pressure, expectation, out of alignment with priorities. If you could say no to one thing in the next week, what would it be?

Space for reflection

My greatest passion is to help others who live with chronic illness find their voice. Part of the work I do around this is to ask thought-provoking questions. Choose one or two below and let’s chat about what’s come up for you in the comments section?

1. If you chose a feeling to work with over the new week ahead, which one would you choose?

2. In what ways do you connect with the new moon and the potency of it’s energy?  

3. How do you record or keep track of insights that you receive?

4. Do you check in with yourself, your partner and/or your kids on any kind of consistent and regular basis?

5. Do you ever feel like our ancestors will be cheering us on for the deep work of healing that we are doing?

6. What have you let go of this year?

7. If you could say no to one thing in the next week, what would it be?