Warrior Weekly: Living life “on purpose”

I couldn’t have dreamed of weeks like this a while back. A vision I didn't even know I was creating at times, is coming to life.

Monday – a regular bodywork client came to “Retreat With Me”. The first one I’ve held in aaages as I’ve not promoted them at all with being in a bit of a blip health-wise earlier this year. It was a raging success, I felt high as a kite afterwards and fired up ready to share the game-changing experience on offer, generating lots of interest in coming to visit. Client left feeling like she’d been on holiday for a week! Clear on what was important to her, what she really wanted, what she desired and what she’d like to manifest. As she’s already launched a successful business in the last year, I can’t wait to see where this kind of clarity and support takes her.

Hay House Writers Workshop booked! This year it’s in London baby and I absolutely cannot wait to experience what I did last year.

Been in need of an outside storage unit since I moved here over a year ago. Managed to pick up a preloved one for £50. A superb end to a superb day.

Tuesday – I’m in a group with 2 other incredible soul sisters. We open up to our most vulnerable selves and learn and grow and heal together. This morning’s topic was on racism. I recently read an incredible book called “A Search For Belonging” which later mentions the case of Stephen Lawrence and the fight his parents took on to prove institutionalised racism in the forces. I cannot begin to imagine what they went through but they were successful in proving it was true. It’s nearly 30 years since his murder. Whilst a deeply upsetting and emotional topic of conversation for a Tuesday morning, it is becoming increasingly important to me to understand our history and what others face and live with that up until previous years, I had no idea was still a part of our world and all it’s systems.

Feeling on top form with Linked In, creating content I enjoy sharing on there and feeling less self-doubt and anxious about stepping out and showing up in a new way. Though I know for sure it will be my most thriving platform (alongside this one), it is a vulnerable position to be in and I am pretty unconventional to say the least when it comes to my approach and beliefs around health and healing.

Wednesday – found myself caught up in a worry trap. Not been consistent with phone breaks and boundaries. Gave myself a 2 hour break. Journalled what was coming up for me. Took a short walk to the lake. Sat out on the grass. Walked around the garden barefoot with a cuppa. Wrote some more, gifting content for Linked In later in the week. All before my weekly check in online. Some deep (not in the way you might consider deep, but energetically deep) exercises. I spent the rest of the day feeling zen like. Floaty. Free. Deeply relaxed.

Saw my 2^nd bodywork client of the week. Filled up my fridge ready for a friends visit this weekend.

Thursday – back on it with going minimum 12 hours tech free overnight. Wrote a linked in article inspired by my most recent podcast. This one post and flurry of inspiration lead to 3 more blog ideas. Finding I can’t keep up with the writing ready to burst out of me. Keep trying to remind myself it’ll all come in its own good time and there will be no stopping me. Slow and steady wins the race.

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Regular nails client, followed by regular pedicure client then tea at R’s with his mum, bro and family. New bodywork client booked in for next Friday. Ooosh.

Friday – wrote a blog first thing. This one blog turned into 3. This happened the other week with 5 years sober. Still haven’t shared it. What was I just saying about the writing? Where’s it all coming from?! I don’t know but I quite like it.

Ahhh today is my retreat day! Started on the journey down with radio silence in the car. Noticed the usual thoughts flooded my mind at a 100 miles an hour. What I found interesting was that any time I paused the monkey mind and say, connected with the clouds in the sky and the green leaves on the trees, feeling that moment of peace and calm momentarily, it really was momentarily. My mind would instantly be back to insane amounts of chatter. I mean, its like I’ve been programmed to be in my head all the time. I so longed for the peace and calm and stillness, yet it felt as if I had little control over maintaining it for longer than a few moments. I wondered how this had come to be. We weren’t born this way were we?

Man I haven’t even told you about the retreat day yet! It started with a personal cacao ceremony and specially blended oils for self-worth and confidence. An hour’s space for all things business chat related. I learnt loads, took away plenty to work with. Having this space really is something else. Long gone are the days I was unable to switch off, run ragged, stressed to death and calling it a career. This is passion and purpose. Fully sustainable. An hour’s meditation journey led on to me connecting with my 4yo self and archetypes to help me reconnect with my true self and not the self I learnt to be which is impeding my worthiness now and affecting all areas of my life without me even realising. Finished the day with 2 hours bodywork before heading to see The Little Mermaid. I now need to write a blog about this! My friend told me there were so many messages in this movie, I wanted to receive them myself. And what better way to end the day? I loved that it was all about me today. Just what I need to keep me topped up until my next floatation tank.

As if all this wasn’t enough, I finished the day with a new bodywork client and 2 more Retreat With Me experiences booked for August and September. Who says you need to be in the office from 9-5 to show your dedication and commitment? Surely the most thriving of businesses can run on any days you might be absent?

Saturday – forgot to do my next podcast, whoops! So keen to get back on it now I’m fired up with motivation and improved confidence, feeling worthy of my place in the world. But as I am often reminded, “all in good time my dear girl, all in good time”. Noticed my arms feel light as hell today, my shoulders had a good work out in yesterday’s bodywork – I can’t half tell the difference. I feel lighter. Renewed. Empowered. So many things. Like I said to my healing coach

David Venus

in one of my first sessions in bodywork 4 years ago now, it is the BEST money I have ever spent. It’s also the only money I’ve ever been judged for spending. More to come on this topic and all the stories beneath another time.

Picked my friend up from Doncaster station. She’s been wanting a full bodywork channelling treatment with me since last year. It takes a lot of trust and you need to feel safe with a treatment like this. I don’t say it lightly when I say its an honour to hold space for another in this way. It’s a whole other level-up when a friend entrusts you.  Completely de-stressed and feeling as if she had let a weight go afterwards, her skin was glowing and she was ready to integrate the transformation into her life back home.

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Sunday – wide awake mega early for the 2^nd day running. Wrote a lot, half typed a blog. Went for a walk with my friend and found a new path I’ve never seen here before - been living here over a year. Settled into a secluded spot and channelled a meditation that was a catalyst for more healing. When I opened my eyes everything was bright and vibrant. Feeling on fire this week, my confidence is soaring, everything is coming together as it’s meant to.