Warrior weekly – easily over does it

Flying out the other side of a breakthrough with a reminder to celebrate slowwwly.

Monday – feeling on fire today after only one day last week where I experienced mild pain. Still very much in winter week yet today I managed 3 walks in nature and saw 3 regular clients for their beauty treatments. I normally only see 1 or 2 clients a day, it was a last-minute bonus to see the 3^rd on the way back home.

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Tuesday – typed first section of memoir – there’s a writing competition with a closing date at the end of September I’ve got my eye on but I’m unsure whether the challenge is tipping me into pushing against something not meant for me.

2 sections written in

Suzy Walker

writing group

Heart Leap

. Met a fellow chronic illness warrior that I immediately struck up a great connection with. We both experienced lots of nodding heads where we shared our plight of gaslighting with medical specialists, leaving appointments where we feel blamed for our illness or medication not working. Exactly one of the 2 sections I was writing about today. It’s only been through speaking with others that I am hearing this is more common than we realise. Often times it can feel like its just us in isolation, that there’s something wrong with us. I was so shocked the other year to find out that what had happened to me was by no means an isolated case but in fact, very common.

Regular bodywork client and catch up in the sun on their balcony with the most spectacular lakeside view.

Maybe not quite as big as this lake, yet surrounded by trees in much the same way.

Virtual coffee with a new Linked In connection who wants me to write an article for women in business who live with chronic illness as well as appear as a guest speaker on the new membership she is getting ready to launch. Super excited at all these opportunities opening up to me.

Long overdue catch up on the phone with a friend. I’ve never been particularly good with telephone conversations – something that started back in my recruitment days after spending long periods of the day on the phone to clients and candidates and then reduced to next to zero once text messages became a big thing. We’ve arranged her birthday weekend in December to go dancing – R has done me a spreadsheet that shows what seasons I’m in every week for the next 2 years so I can longer term plan around my menstrual cycle, health and energy levels!

Wednesday – 7am yoga sesh with R – we’re doing well at this new practice of ours. 5^th attempt at a hot air balloon experience with my friend. It’s her birthday today so I really felt like this day was the one. But nope. Even though its clear blue skies and sunshine, high 20’s in heat, it was still a no go!! Is the universe trying to tell us something? We think it might be. Instead we enjoyed birthday breakfast at York Marina and went on the most gorgeous walk. It was another day for 3 nature walks and also a cold plunge for 5 mins to freshen up mid-day which is going down a treat everyday this week.

Thursday – a little off kilter this morning, mentally out of balance. Physically ever so subtle thing going on with my head. 2 sections written in Suzy’s Heart Leap writers community. 1 section typed. A friend came to Retreat With Me today. She’s driving an hour and a half each way to walk, talk and heal through the power of touch every month. I wasn’t expecting to receive the same in return and when she put one finger on my neck before we got started on her treatment… I felt an energy surge all along the left-hand side of my body from head to toe and went on to discover that she had unleashed a new layer of creativity in me – can’t wait to find out what that does for my book writing! Before she left, a butterfly flew into my home signalling to me that “beautiful new beginnings” were afoot. Can you feel them?

New beginnings. Change. Transformation. Maybe a break through?

Friday – wasn’t feeling on top form this morning. R wanted to do some yoga before work so we did it from the bed as I didn’t have much energy to move. It reminded me of how much I used to do from my bed and how many practices you can incorporate as a chronically ill patient – even when you don’t feel like it. Sometimes people think you have to get to a certain level of wellness first and then it frees up this space to implement certain practices or that health and healing is easier to prioritise. For me it was very much the other way round, I began doing them from being bedbound.

It was now or never for the next episode of my podcast later this morning. The return to healing acronym HEADACHE with episode 11: “H is for healing” - did you get chance to listen?

Met with

Lemon Soul served by Emma Simpson

for a virtual coffee in the afternoon. Fellow chronic illness warrior I met on Tuesday. It was INCREDIBLE to get to know more about her warrior journey and book writing adventure. We had so much to talk about and so many similarities in our paths, past to present.

R had a HUUUGE day which I won’t go into much. Only to say it’s been one of those milestone moments and had been causing him a lot of worry and anxiety in recent weeks (and over the course of the last year). The inner work he’s been doing, the meditation, the visualisation, the practice of forgiveness, the deep, the dark and the uncomfortable, bodywork channelling with me, even some regression hypnotherapy sessions has massively paid off! You can never underestimate the power of this work.

We went out for tea to celebrate but I hit the deck energy wise and was back in bed for 8pm.

Saturday – intentionally slow day. Full rest. Didn’t even get dressed until after lunch. Picked what will likely be the last of the brambles as we head into autumn. R went out for an afternoon with the lads. I met them later to pick him up and 6 of us went for an Indian. I would’ve liked to stay out a little longer but I had to drive us home – I’m much quicker to call it quits now I don’t have the fear of missing out. I do look forward to times where I might be able to stay out a little longer, go dancing again and feel as much freedom through a night out as I feel through the day, everyday.

Sunday – went at it slow again. No plans, no need to get dressed. Went for a leisurely walk this aft. Prepared for tomorrow’s grand finale of the new program I’ve been trial running, the 3rd session is about “Finding Freedom”. I’m thinking of launching this 2-month journey “The Warrior’s Path” for a contribution-based offering to the first 3 delegates. Would this be of interest to you?

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