A live reading, gentle reflection and honest conversation on what happens when our pain is dismissed by others, and what it takes to finally begin listening to ourselves.
I spent years as an endo patient being told my pain was normal, and the strange grief of finally being believed is realizing how long you spent doubting yourself. Glad a circle like this exists for women still in that middle part.
I am so sorry to hear that as an endo patient - with one of the worlds most painful and debilitating conditions - that you were so frequently told this was normal.
The grief you speak to of realising how long you have doubted yourself is something I don’t think is recognised - not even by the people experiencing so much (often decades) of it.
For me there was so much anger too. And blame.
Angry at myself and the world for dishonouring what I knew to be true for so long.
To allow that anger to rise and use it as fuel to create and for writing this book (especially for the chapter The Illusion of Function I’ll be sharing soon) whilst not infiltrating blame has been no mean fete😆
Grief was a feeling buried underneath immense struggle. An experience I couldn’t name until I saw others clearly speak to it on here.
How have you been able to hold and process your grief over the years?
I spent years as an endo patient being told my pain was normal, and the strange grief of finally being believed is realizing how long you spent doubting yourself. Glad a circle like this exists for women still in that middle part.
I am so sorry to hear that as an endo patient - with one of the worlds most painful and debilitating conditions - that you were so frequently told this was normal.
The grief you speak to of realising how long you have doubted yourself is something I don’t think is recognised - not even by the people experiencing so much (often decades) of it.
For me there was so much anger too. And blame.
Angry at myself and the world for dishonouring what I knew to be true for so long.
To allow that anger to rise and use it as fuel to create and for writing this book (especially for the chapter The Illusion of Function I’ll be sharing soon) whilst not infiltrating blame has been no mean fete😆
Grief was a feeling buried underneath immense struggle. An experience I couldn’t name until I saw others clearly speak to it on here.
How have you been able to hold and process your grief over the years?
This is incredibly good. The video did cut out about 20 minutes into the reading though.
Ahhh I’ll re-record it this weekend then🙃
Really appreciate you confirming that as I had wondered but can’t often face checking my own videos, they make me cringe 😆